How I am feeling at the moment.
I was really looking forward to UPM, even before I enrolled on this degree course, the UPM unit description appealed to me so much and I couldn’t wait to get the chance to start on it. Whilst I am really enjoying monotype experimentation and feel this is something I will continue with going forward in my private practise, I am feeling somewhat at odds with this course and what I’m expected to do. I can’t get a fix on it. Isn’t that weird?!
I can be a right doubting thomas and struggle with confidence in my own strengths as an artist, this is the nature of the beast I expect, I am always over-critical of my stuff. So far, I haven’t produced work I am particularly proud of and I can’t understand why that is. I know I have the technical ability to produce good work but those skills seem to be evading me at the moment. I really hope I can improve considerably in forthcoming exercises. The funny thing is I have already come up with a bunch of ideas for my final assignment piece! Maybe that’s the problem, I’m trying to run before I can walk.